I went to the Del Mar horse races tonight, had a great time. I didn’t win and I so should have! I bet a 3 horse Exacta in the 5th race with these names: Princess Susan (I always say I AM the princess. My middle name is Sue). Mood Winner (Menopause makes me moody) and Mean Heat(ahhhh can you say HOTFLASH!??!) HOW does that combination NOT win!??!? Easy…. I bet on it. Oh well, had fun. Only had a diet coke. I also was parked so far from the track it HAD to count as exercise!

You know an exercise video is going to kick your butt when the first line from the instructor is “Welcome…… you brave brave soul” WAIT….. WHAT?!?!??! My darling daughter Selena loaned me her Jillian Michaels “The biggest winner” boxed set. So I loaded all 5 disks in the player and hit random….. Jillian is AMAZING (and really mean! tough! no mean… I’m sticking with mean)!! As she introduces everyone in the class she points to one young lady and tells you to follow her if you are new….. but “It’s still going to be really hard. Really…. well, I’m sorry” Jillian didn’t lie. I’ve been done for a half an…

I am in such a rut!! I feel unmotivated, tired and just BLAH!!!! I still have left overs from the BBQ (dangerous!) I normally send home all the left over junk food with my son……… not this time. WHY?? WHY?!?! Costco size potato chips. I kept them?? WHY?!?!?!?!?!? WHY would I do that to myself?? (Ohhhh and they are the good ones too. Thick, baked and lightly salted) So I guess you know what I had for dinner. UGH!! Now I have potato chip guilt! (I didn’t even know you could HAVE POTATO chip GUILT!!)