Back In The Swing Of Things?

I’m going to try and get back into the swing of things here on Peanut Butter and Whine. I have to be truthful here if it hadn’t been for Jamie stepping in for me there wouldn’t have been anything the last week. I just didn’t have it in me. I am so thankful she is part of my support group. I for one have taken her up on the Young Living Oils. I need some de-stressing and a happiness blends desperately. I will keep in the loop about how it goes once the oils arrive.

For now I’m learning there are a lot of things that I never thought of when dealing with the death of a loved one. I know y’all have told us the struggles that you have had. I know Kate, you were shredding your Dads papers for what seemed months.  Michelle you were having even more issues to deal with. NOW I can honestly sympathize with you. Now I understand.  And it SUCKS!!! Having to now clean out M

om’s little apartment; holy moly! First, I did a horrible job with my every two week spot cleaning because……… well………. disgusting.  Second who knew the woman could cram so MUCH STUFF in a little 600 square foot apartment!!! Right now all I can do is feed the cat, play with the cat and turn around and go back to our house. (It’s all of 12 feet away! Remember Mom had a granny flat connected to our house). I just can’t face it yet. I feel sooooooo bad for the cat. She is curled up on Mom’s sweatshirt crying doesn’t want to leave the bed. I fear she won’t be long for this world. She was my Mom’s constant companion for the last 15 years.

With my mornings free of 6-year-old Alice I know I have GOT to start packing up Mom’s place AND our house for the move to Idaho. I look around our house of 35 years and I am thoroughly overwhelmed by the amount of STUFF. Granted it’s a little house…… but we’ve managed (okay, that’s a lie! I’ve managed) to pack it to the gills with STUFF!!! (BOY is that biting my in the tush now!!)

Today I did manage to order Mom’s prayer cards, that only took me 10 days to create.  Mom’s ashes haven’t been returned yet so our Celebration of Life date hasn’t been set.

Hospice still calls to check on the family. I am still very impressed with Silverado Hospice. They made Mom’s passing so much easier.

Anyway, I’m not sure the direction that PBnWhine will take from here on. I may get spotty with my posts. I dunno yet. I’m still waiting for the fog to lift. I think I would like to write about my move to Idaho. Away from my family. And my darling Alice. To a strange state where I know absolutely no one. Lord KNOWS that I will need somewhere to vent and well, I would miss you all terribly!!