Okay soooooo I’ve decided it’s time to go back to Weight Watcher meetings before all my hard work getting 30 pounds off becomes me have to work harder to get FIFTY pounds off!! If I don’t have someone to compete against APPARENTLY I can’t diet!! So tomorrow evening will be my first meeting since……… well, at least 4 years? Maybe more!!! I need the accountability of a weigh in every week just to keep myself honest!!! Because if I don’t get a handle on this NOW I will be back into my fat clothes!! THAT is unacceptable!!! I’ve fallen back into the mentality that container size equals serving size. Ya…

Last night I was like the little kid that was too tired to sleep! I couldn’t get comfortable, I couldn’t stay asleep, well, that is until about ohhhh 15 minutes before the alarm went off! Then add work was so amazingly slow that I’m EXHAUSTED!! (That just sounds insane a slow day makes me tired?? I should be rested! Or I at least should have a little bit of energy, a second wind if you will. But nooooooooo) Tonight however I plan to be in bed before 10pm! I would be so happy to be asleep by 10:05! (And since I have a wish list started I’d like to sleep…

Okay NOT bright…. yup yup that’s me NOT bright at ALL!!! Went yesterday had a wonderful relaxing massage came home feeling like a limp noodle. THEN today!?!? Today I finished cleaning out my Mom’s Mobile home (ya know the one that is in ESCROW!! WOOO HOOO keep your fingers and toes crossed PLEASE!!). So I haul, I lifted, I cleaned, I wayyyyyyyyyy over-did and now even my hair hurts! Sooooo really? Shouldn’t the massage have come TONIGHT?!!??! Seriously?!?! Well, let’s see what a hot shower does…. OHHHHH WAIT!! I used all the hot water on back to back to back to back loads of laundry. Yup as I said NOT…

Ohhhh my gooooooooodness!! I just had the greatest massage from Trisha at Massage Envy in San Marcos, CA. My daughter Selena gave me an early Mothers Day/Birthday present. I get a monthly massage tonight was my first one. All is well and right with the world tonight! I wish you good dreams! I am off to bed! See ya tomorrow.

This is me normally. Calm, laid back, not easily frazzled. BUT NOT TODAY!!! Today was INSANE! Today I felt like THIS!! I’m going to bed now……. before I turn into THIS!!!!

Okay I confess! I cheated today! I played with, I held and I did pet Jack and Bosco……. my Granddogs. There was no hiding the fact that I was with another dog!! When I walked in the door this evening I was immediately accosted! I have been throughly and completely sniffed and licked. There was some low grumbling and a few barks (NOT even with our INSIDE voice!!) I have been completely chastised for my indiscretions! Gracie is a JEALOUS little bitch! (Ohhh I am funny!! I crack myself up!) AND now?!? NOW Gracie is pouting. So it’s time to go make amends! Have a great night. I’ll see you…

Okay I have GOT to start being good again or all my hard work will be for nothing!! But OHMYGOD I can’t get enough to eat again! Then between Dr. Louie’s baby shower (yummmy food LOTS of goodies!) Gretchen’s birthday lunch (can you say ate so much I couldn’t move?!?!) I have GOT to start being good again OR …….. or well there will be a lot of grumbling, gripping, whining and yadda yadda ya……. I need to find a buddy to race in weight loss. Apparently, I need the competition! OR a really mean trainer. Or someone to follow me around and grab food out of my hand.